Shock, Confused...but it's all understood why

Hey.

Today must have been the most craziest day of this year. And all for the worst reasons. Let's talk, shall we?

1) Worship practice today was TERRIBLE. I am seriously evaluating myself if I'm ready to be the co-leader of the worship team. It's not like....it's their fault or something. It's probably mine, because I expect too much of them. I have high expectations of the team, cuz I know that they have potential to do extremely well. But I know, and I can see, that the will to be fully prepared, ready to practice, be on time, and not goof off and waste time , is NOT there. Maybe their heart is really there and all...but I can't seem to see it. And that really gets to me, cuz I wanted the worship today to go smoothly. Instead, the bass player and I got into a 6 second argument and he stormed off. And when that happens, I lose the drive to keep going and worship with my heart fully there....Wait, was it ever fully there? I don't know.

2) My Accountability partner was sent to the hospital. Yeah, you heard me right. A 1/2 second accident resulted in a lot of blood, tears, and a lot of praying. C.C's head "accidentally" hit the side of a door, where the two walls come together and kinda stick out a bit, so he got a 4 cm cut. AND THIS WAS RIGHT AFTER DRIVEN!!!!!! His head began bleeding and we had to rush everybody away. 1st aid was admitted immediately, his head was wrapped up, paramedics arrived and C.C left for the hospital.
But that's only the beginning. Everybody's heart broke. I fought back tears after the incident, cuz I know Chris didn't deserve this. It wasn't his fault in any of this; he was INNOCENT. All we could was pray, pray for healing, pray for comfort. Some people did cry, sitting there with red, tear-drawn eyes and that's all we could have done. We helped him all we could, and that was it. We were basically...useless. All we could was watch and hope nothing worse would come along. Prayers could be hear in every direction. So many distressed calls to God. Out hearts....have faced a heavy incident. We have to make sure it doesn't happen again.