Wednesday, April 14, 2010

Back to the history books

I wrote a poem in class and I really like it, so I'm gonna post it up. enjoy!

Poem on a Pink T-Shirt

Restricted into a total constitution
Imprisoned, bullied, jailed
Darkness surrounds, closes in
A gnashing of teeth
Limited to restraints
Fighting to stay conscious
Blond hair, blue eyes that continually look down on us
keeping us down
discriminating, hating, blind.

In the distance, a waving flag
Stripes and stars, proudly flying
Salvation taken form in armoured, aggressive machines
They begin the flee, the aggressors
Evil retreating back to its hole.
The eagles have arrived
And they are as merciless as the evil ones
Not a fight but a massacre
A bright light fighting its way into dying darkness
The eagles have arrived
And they willingly challenge death and destruction
Their claws as powerful as their wings
The eagles have arrived
We are finally free.

Jeffrey Lo
Peace Love Respect

Wednesday, April 7, 2010

Back to the roadblock

Hey guys.

I guess....I always had this problem.
I was talking to a few friends a few minutes ago....and I found out my ex has a new relationship now. Normally, I should be happy for her. I am happy for her. But..there's a part of me that doesn't want to do that.
This other part of me feels like this:

I kinda...weak, emotionally
cuz it brings me back to memories i don't wanna re-live
you know all about my messed up relationship with Tina, right?
I can't believe it still kinda affects me now
basically....
When I see/find out Tina's in a relationship again, my heart stops and drops down a little.
cuz it reminds me of my failure. It reminds me that I wasn't good enough.
Really, I can't believe i feel like this. I told myself I wouldn't

- Sigh - I guess that what happens when you break up for the first time. It just holds onto you and you feel hurt every time something changes.
But at the same time, I had a friend to pull me through. Thanks, Vani. Maybe you feel like you didn't do much, but just listening to me and providing the smallest advice has already made the difference to see this situation in a different viewpoint.

...yeah, just a short snapshot of my life.

Jeffrey Lo
Peace Love Respect