That's it. The End

To anyone who cares
To anyone who decides that reading this is worth their time

I am starting to hate myself
I can't stand the fact that I hurt the people I care about
All the time, I say that I won't
I say that I'll try not to
I say too much

But I don't show enough
My words are cheap
My actions, unfulfilled

And it kills me on the inside
to see me blindly hurt you
to see me throw insults at you
and all the while, I can't stop myself

It rips me apart from the inside
It tears out what I have left to feel

And one day, I know I'll lose you
I know I won't be able to apologize
I won't be able to stand next to you anymore

One day, I will have lost the battle.



God.....save me.....

After a long time....

To my best friend who've I've been rejecting for a long time,

I love you so much. I just want you to know.
I love you beyond what you can know.
Everything about you, everything you don't see fit.
I love you for everything you are.

I know I've been ignoring you as of late.
I've been rejecting your love
Rejecting your words
Rejecting you

And I'm so sorry
I need to come back to you
I need to realize how much I'm hurting you

And all I can say to you is that....I'm sorry.
I love you.
So much.

Let's go back to God together.
Grow more together.
To have more faith together.
To look ahead and trust God together.

I love you. <3

I know you want things to be as they used to be
Honestly, so do I.
So let's work towards it.
We'll be the best of friends again; you and I

There's so much I want you to know.
So much i want to reveal
If I had the time, I'd pour out my entire heart to you
You already carry a part of my heart with you.

I promise you, I'll never leave you again.
No matter where you or I end up, never again.
I'll keep the promise. I'm not gonna let myself break it.
Keep me accountable.

<3

Jeffrey Lo
Peace Love Respect

New realizations

1) My heart's turned cold
2) I'm very protective of my family and friends
3) If you wanna hate me, go ahead. I'm not gonna stop you.