Somehow...I'm more afraid than before

You gave me another chance. Again.

But the thing is...a part of me, a small, small part of me, wanted you to be strong and say no.
A part of me wanted to see you just reject all my pleas for another chance.

Cuz I don't deserve another one. I don't deserve another opportunity to hurt you.
That's all I've ever done. That's the result of anything I've done with or to you.

I can't keep the promises I make to you.
Goodness, I really wish I could. I really want to keep all of them.
But time after time, I watch myself screw up.

And now, I'm so scared.
Scared of failing. Again.
Scared of falling short, again.

So scared of hurting you again.