Hey
What's up? How was your day?
Mine was alright. Went to Pmall with a friend....for 4 HRS. That went way too long. I actually cannot count the things we did to make up the 4 hours. Weird eh? Well, that's me. =)
Church today was alright. Generation Worship is AWESOME. My friend was in the skit and it was HILARIOUS. He made it so funny, it was awesome to watch. AND! We learned that we can pray ANYWHERE, ANYTIME and about ANYTHING! Yeah, I already knew that but it never hurt to have a reminder ever now and then.
I also broke down in a room at church. Alone. During Sunday School, I left, found an empty room and just opened up to God. There were so many things I couldn't find words for, so many things I wanted to just blast out to God because I was holding it in for too long. And for the longest time, I felt tears come to my eyes. All my questions I had about what was going on just spilled out and ... it felt good to release it all. God now has control of everything and I'm beyond glad that it's no longer in my hands, but in the hands of a holy, perfect being. My heart is comforted.
Jeffrey Lo
Peace Love Respect
Sunday, May 30, 2010
Sunday, May 23, 2010
Realization
Today, I realized a great thing.
I was at church today till about 4 and I was spending time with my friend, cleaning up our pastor's messy room, playing a... scale on piano.....yeah, very different things.
But I realized that this friend ... is the greatest person God's ever given to me.
This friend is a completely beautiful creation, with so many gifts, I can't even finish naming.
This friend's one of my best ones.
At the same time, I didn't realize this until I momentarily lost her.
A few days back, I said some things I shouldn't have.
"In your anger, do not sin". Well, I did and I felt like I back-stabbed her.
And for the few days that we didn't talk, I felt my heart break more and more.
But she continually amazes me.
When I apologized, I thought she would completely reject it.
"Shut up and go away. I don't wanna talk to you" is what I expected.
But no. She accepted my apology and life went on.
She's growing so much and so fast, it makes me smile.
And if you're reading this, I just wanna let you know I'm praying for you.
Life's not perfect, we're not perfect but God is. And He's in control of us.
If you're struggling with something, I'm always open for a talk.
If you're not struggling with anything, I'm still open for a talk.
A small part of my heart will always be yours. Please take care of it.
...=)
Jeffrey Lo
Peace Love Respect
I was at church today till about 4 and I was spending time with my friend, cleaning up our pastor's messy room, playing a... scale on piano.....yeah, very different things.
But I realized that this friend ... is the greatest person God's ever given to me.
This friend is a completely beautiful creation, with so many gifts, I can't even finish naming.
This friend's one of my best ones.
At the same time, I didn't realize this until I momentarily lost her.
A few days back, I said some things I shouldn't have.
"In your anger, do not sin". Well, I did and I felt like I back-stabbed her.
And for the few days that we didn't talk, I felt my heart break more and more.
But she continually amazes me.
When I apologized, I thought she would completely reject it.
"Shut up and go away. I don't wanna talk to you" is what I expected.
But no. She accepted my apology and life went on.
She's growing so much and so fast, it makes me smile.
And if you're reading this, I just wanna let you know I'm praying for you.
Life's not perfect, we're not perfect but God is. And He's in control of us.
If you're struggling with something, I'm always open for a talk.
If you're not struggling with anything, I'm still open for a talk.
A small part of my heart will always be yours. Please take care of it.
...=)
Jeffrey Lo
Peace Love Respect
Monday, May 10, 2010
Sunday, May 9, 2010
Shock, Confused...but it's all understood why
Hey.
Today must have been the most craziest day of this year. And all for the worst reasons. Let's talk, shall we?
1) Worship practice today was TERRIBLE. I am seriously evaluating myself if I'm ready to be the co-leader of the worship team. It's not like....it's their fault or something. It's probably mine, because I expect too much of them. I have high expectations of the team, cuz I know that they have potential to do extremely well. But I know, and I can see, that the will to be fully prepared, ready to practice, be on time, and not goof off and waste time , is NOT there. Maybe their heart is really there and all...but I can't seem to see it. And that really gets to me, cuz I wanted the worship today to go smoothly. Instead, the bass player and I got into a 6 second argument and he stormed off. And when that happens, I lose the drive to keep going and worship with my heart fully there....Wait, was it ever fully there? I don't know.
2) My Accountability partner was sent to the hospital. Yeah, you heard me right. A 1/2 second accident resulted in a lot of blood, tears, and a lot of praying. C.C's head "accidentally" hit the side of a door, where the two walls come together and kinda stick out a bit, so he got a 4 cm cut. AND THIS WAS RIGHT AFTER DRIVEN!!!!!! His head began bleeding and we had to rush everybody away. 1st aid was admitted immediately, his head was wrapped up, paramedics arrived and C.C left for the hospital.
But that's only the beginning. Everybody's heart broke. I fought back tears after the incident, cuz I know Chris didn't deserve this. It wasn't his fault in any of this; he was INNOCENT. All we could was pray, pray for healing, pray for comfort. Some people did cry, sitting there with red, tear-drawn eyes and that's all we could have done. We helped him all we could, and that was it. We were basically...useless. All we could was watch and hope nothing worse would come along. Prayers could be hear in every direction. So many distressed calls to God. Out hearts....have faced a heavy incident. We have to make sure it doesn't happen again.
Today must have been the most craziest day of this year. And all for the worst reasons. Let's talk, shall we?
1) Worship practice today was TERRIBLE. I am seriously evaluating myself if I'm ready to be the co-leader of the worship team. It's not like....it's their fault or something. It's probably mine, because I expect too much of them. I have high expectations of the team, cuz I know that they have potential to do extremely well. But I know, and I can see, that the will to be fully prepared, ready to practice, be on time, and not goof off and waste time , is NOT there. Maybe their heart is really there and all...but I can't seem to see it. And that really gets to me, cuz I wanted the worship today to go smoothly. Instead, the bass player and I got into a 6 second argument and he stormed off. And when that happens, I lose the drive to keep going and worship with my heart fully there....Wait, was it ever fully there? I don't know.
2) My Accountability partner was sent to the hospital. Yeah, you heard me right. A 1/2 second accident resulted in a lot of blood, tears, and a lot of praying. C.C's head "accidentally" hit the side of a door, where the two walls come together and kinda stick out a bit, so he got a 4 cm cut. AND THIS WAS RIGHT AFTER DRIVEN!!!!!! His head began bleeding and we had to rush everybody away. 1st aid was admitted immediately, his head was wrapped up, paramedics arrived and C.C left for the hospital.
But that's only the beginning. Everybody's heart broke. I fought back tears after the incident, cuz I know Chris didn't deserve this. It wasn't his fault in any of this; he was INNOCENT. All we could was pray, pray for healing, pray for comfort. Some people did cry, sitting there with red, tear-drawn eyes and that's all we could have done. We helped him all we could, and that was it. We were basically...useless. All we could was watch and hope nothing worse would come along. Prayers could be hear in every direction. So many distressed calls to God. Out hearts....have faced a heavy incident. We have to make sure it doesn't happen again.
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