The Hard Truth

I know I don't please you.
I know I'm not good enough for you.
I know I don't have those 90s.

But the fact is....
I'm not living my life for you.
I'm not here to please your will.

So am I gonna to try harder?
Am I going to start doing something different?

Yeah, but not for you.
For God.

And Once Again

I really feel useless, y'know?
I feel like I can't do anything.

Every time, everything I do ends up hurting you
Making you cry
Maintaining the uneasy silence.

I'm really bad with my words
With my thoughts
With my actions

And if you can find it in your heart to forgive me, I can't ask for anything more.
If you can look past my failures
my flaws.....
If you can, that's all I can ask.

I'm so sorry.
But I've said it so many times.
Do you still believe me?
Does it mean anything to you anymore....?
I don't know. I hope it does.


God, you know how I feel.
You know how much I hurt
How much I want change.

I don't doubt you.
I don't struggle against your will.
I just hope I'm ready for what's going to happen.

I guess.....I just need to hold your hand.