Friday, January 18, 2013
All in all
You know, I really want to talk to you.
I really want to have conversations with you again.
But I don't want to look weak or desperate, like I want you in my life...even though I do.
My pride's gotten the better of me.
I'm afraid of feeling the same rejection.
I'm afraid of being shut down again.
Or maybe you've really forgotten about me altogether.
Maybe I'm really nothing to you anymore.
I'm finally what I promised you I wouldn't be. A nobody.....
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hi jeff,
ReplyDeleteThis place is my safe haven to talk to you; it's like an abandoned place that I can keep revisiting and leave my thoughts. Also...I didn't want to bother you to have to see my message notification on Facebook.
Like you said in this post, I really want to talk to you too. I really want to have conversations with you again as well. But I feel like all the doors are closed for me to ever talk you normally again.
I just hope that you're surrounded by people who love and care about you, and it seems you have been able to accomplish that. Even though the person I miss is no longer existent, I won't forget the endless hours we spent talking and joking around, the deep conversations we had. Even our arguments seem so distant now. I feel like this letter is to a distant friend that I can no longer reach, so i'll just leave this here as a memorial to a close friend that i dearly miss.
Love,
An Old Friend