Too close, at least for me

I don't know if you still keep up with this anymore.
But I suddenly feel a need to put this here.

I don't know how many times I've already messed it up.
I hope I don't do it again in the future.
I would promise you, but that doesn't have value anymore.

All I can say is...
I know this is my last chance.
I know if I screw up again, then that's it.

I'm sorry
For leaving you wanting, lacking
For filling you with anger and hatred

I can't ever fix those anymore, I can only make sure it doesn't happen again.

This is my last chance.
Thank you for giving it to me.

Jeffrey Lo
Peace Love Respect