Long time no blog

Hey y'all

I haven't blogged in forever, and my friend is pressing me to blog....so yeah, I'm blogging now.

I dunno. The past few times have been rough. Not really rough, but more like confusing and a drag. I've been drifting from God quite a bit, mostly from too much work and lack of sleep. Which is a terrible reason, but still. I gotta go fix it back up and ask for forgiveness.

Also, I really REALLY dislike it when my emotions act up. Like...I really don't like it. It always happens, all at the wrong times. I can never seem to keep it under control. Sometimes, I can, but not when I want them to just calm down and shut up. It always ruins things, especially who are close to me. I could use some prayer for that. ='(

This is a little more big. I wanna join the army reserve. Yes, you heard me right. The Army reserve. Although my parents aren't exactly encouraging about it, I don't know if that's where God wants me to go. I would like to join for the skills you learn and the opportunities, but my friends and family aren't exactly...."Go for it!" kinda attitude. I am completely confused on this part, so a lot of prayer would be much appreciated. =D

And...yeah. My life is as normal. Ups and downs all the time. I find myself looking back a lot. Especially at my past relationship with my ex. I don't know why I do it though. I guess, I just look back at what could have been, but was not to be. Don't get me wrong, I still see her as an awesome, beautiful person. Sometimes, I wish we didn't break up. Sometimes, I wanna put my arms around her and tell her everything's gonna be alright. Sometimes....I wish I could change what ruined the relationship. Sometimes....I want to be hers again.

Yeah.....kinda vague on my part, but that's basically what's going on with me. Thanks for spending the time to read.

Jeffrey Lo
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